June 2, 2006
you'll be sorry
CURRENT MOOD: Homicidal
i hate you, and i hate you, and i hate you... i dont care who any of you are... point is, I HATE ALL OF YOU!
here i was, write a stupid blog about crap in my life... and i came to realize, thanks to talking to a dear friend some random person on AIM, that nobody cares... why the hell would anyone care about my sappy stories and my pathetic life? all i am to be told by these people is that "oh i understand, cause my life is blah blah blah" or "well why dont you do something about it"
i dont know what i expect people to say when i say the things i wanted to say... i just wanted people to read it, take it in, and just listen.... no advice, no replies... just listen, then, tell me you love me, tell me that YOU care about me... and that i should live to see another day because you want to see me tomorrow
but i am just fooling myself, i am just fooling the world... no one gives a shit about anyone else but themselves... and here i am being told that i should give a shit about myself, and love myself... FUCK THAT... people do too much damn self loving everyday... yes, masterbation is the answer to world fucking peace
and after people pretend to care a little, they disappear, until you have another mental breakdown, then they come back and say "oh, i understand cause I blah blah blah"
sometimes i fantasize about my death... not because i want to die like some emo crybaby... because i hope that the day that happens, people will realize how much i mean to them... because people don't realize what they have until they lose it... i want to be lost, so that people will show up to my funeral, and i can finally see tears cried for me, i can hear people whisper "i love you" to me, i can finally have the world in silence, and listen to me
if you go, you'll be sorry... i'll be sure that you're all sorry
SONG THAT BEST REFLECTS TODAY'S BLOG: Ballad Of A Paralysed Citizen by The Faint
Posted by ~*Pretty Kitty*~ at 11:36 AM
October 20, 2005
i don't want to start any blasphemous rumours, but i think that god has a sick sense of humor...
CURRENT MOOD: Pessimistic
...and when i die, i expect to find, Him laughing...............
people are jerks, *sigh* and all this time i have been trying to find reasons why to keep my head up and smile for the rest of the world..... it seems like as the world progresses, love becomes a thing of the past, and all that matters now is fulfilling our sexual fantasies, i mean, that's what the world is about....reproducing, making ourselves feel good...whatever....i am mad at the world right now.....and worst of all, my headset for my phone doesnt' want to work....bleh.....whatever, so i move on, and folks, imma take the scenic route, imma move off my path for love, and instead i'll turn left on this fork in the road......i'll take what i want, get what i need, people get less hurt that way when u know from the beginning that ur just in it for the sex.....well, we will see what happens.....i really need to learn how to be a bitch, that's the only way to survive, that, and the only way to feel better these days is cookie dough ice cream and lou bega......ladies and gentlemen, i give you mambo #5 (and if u know what i am talking about, then you get a cookie!)
SONG THAT BEST REFLECTS TODAY'S BLOG: Just A Little Crush by Jennifer Paige
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Posted by ~*Pretty Kitty*~ at 9:55 PM
October 6, 2005
the further i get from the things i care about.... the less i care about how much further away i get
CURRENT MOOD: Unbroken
it's so funny, how close minded the world is....no matter who you are, no matter if you are a liberal, or a conservative, no matter male or female....whatever you are, you are very close minded indeed.....and if you're not close minded, well, then you are a hypocrite.......not like it matters......but it's funny......people who never had a rough life talk about how stupid being suicidal is, when little do they know it's not just a stupid trend that gets picked up, but most times it's actually a very serious clinical condition.....some people bitch about people who bitch.....yeah, hypocritical....some people talk about high morals and crap, and when you turn your back, they are bragging about how cool they are because they scarfed down a bottle of vodka (and still find the time to lash out at people who do the same)......people never realize that there are exceptions......you don't realize it, sometimes i don't even realize it.....pretending like you know everything there is to know about life is very juvenile, and what's worse, is while you're pretending like you know everything you declare that you really don't know everything......funny how people think they have the right to tell the world how to be, just like how i think i have the right to let the world know how it is through these blogs.....funny.......and when you're friends read it....they support you, and everyone else thinks your one big drama queen........funny how men (and yes women) can say they would give you the world, and when your gone, they are offering it for the same price to someone else.........how close-minded you must be to think that you know how it goes in your life, and you know how it goes......how close minded to complain about whiny teenagers, when you were one urself......how close minded to look down upon everyone, and write about the world in your eyes, thinking your on some high pedestal cause you got it all "figured out".....or at least you are trying to sound that way......to lower yourself to the point to where you hate one type of person, yet accept that type if s/he were your friend.........how funny it is to say that you are a fun-loving whatever, and yet hate just as much as you say you love.......how funny that you can accept yourself when you reject ur mirror image in others......how silly we all are......to have friends we hate, and hold dearest the enemies we love......how we find a resolution to life, and fall back to our beloved patterns of loathing and "smarty pantism"........to think that you can have respect when you have an opinion.......that is the funniest thing of them all.....as long as you have an opinion, you will never had respect....so we are all going about this the wrong way.....people will disagree, and if they respect your choice, well that just says that much about how much they believe in their own opinion....i know i will get no respect for believeing in what little i believe in, and that's not cool....cause deep down inside, we want people to think just like us....or else we won't have an opinion about what's right or wrong.....then people get mad when opinions become a fad and everything thinks like them.....crazy.....people are so funny.....you want to know what is the most hilarious? i am close minded enough to think people will read this, understand this, and not hate it.........by the way alby....i still respect you
SONG THAT BEST REFLECTS TODAY'S BLOG: People Are People by Depeche Mode
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Posted by ~*Pretty Kitty*~ at 5:25 PM
October 5, 2005
for what it's worth, i feel i should let you know...
CURRENT MOOD: Morbid
it's very conceited isn't it....to think that you have the power to ruin a person's life.....so fucking conceited to think, that it was always about you........i mean look at me, thinking the world is all about me.....sitting here, typing, thinking the world cares about me......i complain about my life to people, thinking it's all about me.....i am crying right now, thinking, it's all about me......i just never want to let go, let go of the past, and of memories....of fantasies and of dreams........well after things are buried six feet under, i still think it's standing right next to me, i still think, i have it in my hands......i think people love me, i think people hate me, i think, that people always are thinking of me.....but it's not so....i could die right now, and the world will keep on spinning, no pause, no moment of silence, because somewhere in the world, it will still be turning..........there is no point to this life, so you can get a fucking degree in whatever and become a world reknowned fuck....but all it amounts to is a pretty casket shoved in the ground.....yeah you get a few tears & a few words......but it eventually dies, just like everything else......and even then, your body will be thrown out after so many years, and you become nothing, nonexistant.......
SONG THAT BEST REFLECTS TODAY'S BLOG: Fear Of Ghosts by Cure
Posted by ~*Pretty Kitty*~ at 12:08 AM
July 23, 2005
Fear and Loathing in the depths of...
CURRENT MOOD: Rejected
Slowly the minutes tiptoe by, shockingly revealing true friends from greedy abusers....it's in times like these that I feel so used, so rejected, from people I once called friends.....today I realized there are so very few people whom I really call friends....not just mere aquaintences, oh no...but actual friends I can call at midnight and not feel bad for disturbing them.....friends that I know would help me when I needed help...friends that could care less if I couldn't help them when they needed help.....have you ever felt like the world has turned it's back on you? as if everyone wants to go out and have fun, but diliberately "forget" to invite you....that after hours of hard work, unappreciated, and long days consoling friends in their darkest hours, forgotten, you turn to your friend for a little chat, a little fun, and they turn away because some "more appealing" person came their way....how after so much time I spent being too good of a friend, a pretty lady walks by and I get ignored, because I don't have heavy eyeliner, an eye opener physique, straight can-never-go-wrong hair, or a cute little smile.....Men....you can never be a man's friend...they always want everything for the price of nothing....they always want help from you, and hope that you never let it out that you know him.....they always want your money, your dreams, your love.....they always want, for me to keep my mouth shut, eyes closed & never ask for anything in return........it may be my terrible judgement of character that so far in life I have not met one decent man, not one....every guy I met had a second agenda, and a secret hidden......maybe chasing after pretty smiles and open legs was all they were built to do.....I hope I can meet someone to prove me wrong....or I hope I can possess men's ability to hold in their filthy hands a heart of one so undeserving of cruelty and torment, and so easily, no guilt attached, be able to squeeze the blood in a bowl and smash it on the wall to mark this momentous occasion of another woman undone....these ragged hands cannot type quickly enough of the fear and loathing i have for these creatures....these men I see everyday parading around in cheap cologne and unsatisfied hunger....they rate women by the look of her skin, the wave of their hair, the absence of all moral.....and while these skanks get the bigger boobs, the smaller noses to appeal more to this caveman instinct, the rest of us with enough mind and manner to uphold our decisions and continue to wait on a perch for a man who believes it is worth the trouble to get to know a woman and appeal to HER needs and wants...but of course from what I have seen so far, there is really no such thing....and don't go saying that there are "nice guys" out there, because I knew about a dozen so called "nice guys" and to tell you the truth, they turned out to be the biggest jerks and greatest disappointments.......*sigh* I am a lonely girl with too much of a broken heart to see mr. bright side right now....all i know is that I have so called "friends" who will continue to ignore, abuse, and all that jazz....kill me now toto...there is no way to get back to kansas now....
SONG THAT BEST REFLECTS TODAY'S BLOG: Killing Me Softly by The Fugees
Posted by ~*Pretty Kitty*~ at 12:34 AM
November 1, 2004
to all the ladies!!! (men are urged to read)
CURRENT MOOD: Enraged
men are pigs...no doubt about it...my fiery critical side is up for the test...and here i am back where i was about a year ago...yes all u men out there are SLOBS!! sex-crazed maniacs looking for a one night stand.....but damn those women who are all "in love" and helpless and playing damsel in distress...hey i can critisize you cause i was in those shoes...but damn it....what year are we in? 2005? time for women to rules and for men to follow whether they like it or not......no more begging.....no more of all this sappy "oh boo whoo i need you" SNAP OUT OF IT!!! yeah i can say all this cause my dad was one of them....i dont want to brag....who wants to brag about a father who has gotten my mom pregnant at the age of 15...then forced her to have an abortion, having sex with her again in the very waiting room of the hospital when her abortion was to be had.....yeah most men find that "kinky"....well you guys are fucking sick bastards!!!! then my father has the nerve to get my mom pregnant 2 more times, two more abortions....i was a miracle child...all these years my mom lead me to believe i survived after 3 miscarriages....yeah i survived from my fathers hate.....he even abused me in my first 6 months of life.....which explains my hideous appearence.....men are such gross bastards!! i would kill every man on this earth....well u may say there are acceptions....of course there are "always" exceptions...guess what missy.....every man on this earth has been a good for nothing mofo....every man i know has used a girl at least once......every man i know..........don't you ladies deny it...and dont u ladies fall for it....if its love...then he will fight damn hard to win u over again and again...as many times as it will take...dont fall easy!!!!!!! dont!!!! i know, this is an area i am well experienced in....and if there are men out there who are "pure and true" well every women should doubt u...and how do u correct this wrong done on u? make every man realize his stoneage urges are kinda not up to date.....well women weep for loved ones lost....then party the next day....life made me cynical...and showed me some pretty fucked up shit...and now i am not being the ignorant woman protected from "bad things" as in the victorian age...no i am gonna see it...and call it as i see it.....
SONG THAT BEST REFLECTS TODAY'S BLOG: I Will Survive by Gloria Gaynor
Posted by ~*Pretty Kitty*~ at 9:36 PM
March 22, 2004
Masks....You should read
CURRENT MOOD: Disappointed
yeah don't you love them....the masks people put on to hide what they fear most...themselves...whether its for protection from the outside...or maybe just to look "cool".....people use them all the time....people are too AFRAID to be naked....just come out with the truth despite what others think...i hate it when some put on a show for attention, or so to be recognized as one who is just so awesome.....but really....your not....damn it, if a person can't just be honest to others...and to themselves...then they are no better than spooners! (mindless blond cheerleader robots who giggle like fucking retards) use your own mind and take off your damn mask.....don't cover up who you are and don't try to ERASE yourself....cause it will never happen...you will always be you and one day people will figure out who you are.....and then they would hate you....no, they won't hate you for who you are...but they would hate you for who you are trying to pass off as.....once you can master a little thing called the truth, and be bold enough to step out in the sun in your own skin then you will find happiness and wisdom....and no longer will your life be solely dependant on your desire to be accepted...but you can finally live for yourself
SONG THAT BEST REFLECTS TODAY'S BLOG: Magic's In The Make-Up by No Doubt
Posted by ~*Pretty Kitty*~ at 12:01 AM
March 20, 2004
Stupid Jerks Who look for Stupid Sluts
CURRENT MOOD: Pissed Off
Don't you hate it when guys eye a woman as if she were a piece of meat?? a trophy to be won?? a test of "manlihood" if he had sex with her??? well...i say this...ALL OF YOU SHOULD GO TO HELL!!! i hate it how men go up to a woman and say "hey sexy...wat u doin??" with their lame "charisma" and distinctive smell of immaturity...god...for example...today...i signed on to find that my profile has been viewed 142 times!!! now i am wondering how that could be if it was viewed 50 times yesterday...then checking my mailbox i find it littered with the expectant calls of horny men trying to find a one night cyber stand...now i think i speak for all well dignified & well-kept woman who say..DON"T EVEN THINK ABOUT IT!! i mean ok...if u are trying to find a slut i understand..it is ur pathetic life not mine...and if u are a slut trying to give ur life away...the please do so..but god...if u are goning to send an invite into ur stupid life (or your antsy pants) then do a little background check & see if they are even interested!!! I for one cannot stand men who have their "friends" spaces filled with half naked sluts & all too willing prostitutes...so next time u see this face...or this profile..BACK OFF!! YOU LAME, GOOD-FOR-NOTHING, LOWER THAN THE PRIMATIVE BEINGS WHO ONCE STAGGERED THIS EARTH SLOBS!!!!! unless you are one of the few people with morals and a sense of dignity who actually want to meet someone cool...then feel free to email me!! i am willing to meet anyone who owns their mind and body..not rent it out for $1.25 an hour....thank you and have a nice day
SONG THAT BEST REFLECTS TODAY'S BLOG: Stronger by Britney Spears
Posted by ~*Pretty Kitty*~ at 10:07 PM