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July 31, 2006
It had to be you
CURRENT MOOD: On top of the world, and beneath the Universe
well, if you're reading this, you most likely know that I am currently working on a story of sorts... hopefully this, unlike most "books" i try to start, actually gets completed... but before that is ever published on this site... i hope my most recent muse doesn't mind, that i put down in words, how wonderful life is... now he is in the world....
its funny, how the many love songs i listen to can mold themselves to fit my current situation... of course, never fit perfectly (rarely they do) but nonetheless, they are songs that never seemed to have been more true than in the now
*ahem* well, my most current romance, for the first time... is not one of unrequited love, love abandoned, and just to sum it up... the guy is genuinely NOT a jerk
no... the reason why i feel the little pain i feel now, is because honestly, the world is against us.... its not quite a story like that of romeo & juliet, not so much like cinderella as it is a bit of sleeping beauty... its a mixture of all fairy tales ever told, with a modern twist... & we are still unsure of its ending.... sure, you may think that i am inflating the magnitude of this romance a little bit... but you have no idea, unless you actually were to know of what happened, of what is happening now
our feelings for one another are unsure... well, we know there are feelings... very strong ones, but on his side, he doesn't quite know whether or not its love... i know my side is love, i can so easily fall in love thanks to years of experience... but this being his first time really being involved with a species of the opposite sex, yeah... he is still unsure, but sure that he deeply cares for me...
okay, this blog is not with the intention of explaining my situation, just to relieve some burdening thoughts and feelings, to find a brief mode of escape from my shaking hands, clenched heart, dreamy state of mind... and all the other physical maladies overtaking me
I miss him, I love him, and yet, through all this, though i probably can never see him again for the next two years, i still feel like the luckiest person alive to have had the little time i had with him... of course, plenty of guys made me feel like i would go to the ends of the earth for them... but with this one, i know i don't have to... and best of all, i have complete trust in him.... complete...
you have no idea how big of deal that is for me... i have complete, trust.... i don't have the smallest doubt that he will/is cheat/ing on me.... i believe him when he says he cares for me... i believe him when he explains anything to me... i just have complete trust
out of all the loves in my life, he came in as the biggest surprise... right down to the day i told him i loved him... he was the biggest surprise.... i had NO idea things would get this far, i had NO idea things would turn out like this....
well, thought interrupted due to unavoidable circumstances... but before I go... let me tell you
i do not regret a single thing besides the fact I was caught.... and this story will be told, for many, many years to come...
no doubt about that
SONG THAT BEST REFLECTS TODAY'S BLOG: Unintended by Muse
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